summer entries '04
from june to august

June 03 2004

Wow. It's June already. That's crazy. I can't believe time passed so fast. It feels like eighth grade just started, but the school year is already drawing to a close.

Memorial Day weekend was dull, but I don't mind that much. I cut my hair... Ugh. I don't like it, but a lot of people said it was cute, so yay. =] And more people liked it than didn't, so I guess that's good. And more news! The relatives that I was complaining about before (see previous entries) are leaving tonight. =D My uncle's going to return later in the summer, though. -_- At least he'll be gone for a while. Oh yeah, I went shopping yesterday after piano lessons. Bought some nice stuff. =] Then we ate at Todai, which was real expensive, but very good. =D

Lots of things happening next week. There's the concert (can't wait to see Michael and Justin dressed up ;]) and the graduation (or promotion, which is what they're calling it) party/dance... That'll be fun. And I'll get to spend some quality time with my friends before we all leave junior high. But then there's the Algebra finals (on Thursday and Friday), which I am absolutely dreading. I'm probably not going to do so well on that. Hopefully my grade (I have a B in Algebra right now -_-) won't drop too much after I take that, though...

Plugs - Mag, Kristine, Di, Stepherz, Ridts, and Tiffany.

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"The Way" - Clay Aiken

June 07 2004

Oi. Today was okay. Had to do the timed mile run for Phys. Ed. Uhh. I didn't do that well. Slowest I've run yet, I think. The soggy weather probably had something to do with it. Plus the fact that I kept stepping in mud, which was disgusting. -_- What else, what else. Hmm. Have been arguing with Mother a lot in the last few days, and over cake of all things. She and my aunt co-own a bakery, so she decided to donate a cake to the graduation party (which is on Friday!). I wanted her to make the cake really nice, but she wanted to do it simple, and blah blah blah. I finally gave up. Oh, well. >< It is just a cake.

The Algebra finals are in two days. Agh. I'm so worried that I'm going to completely flunk them, but I still haven't been studying. >< Stupid laziness. I keep missing so many on all the practice tests/worksheets that the teacher has been giving us. Ugh. I just hope that it won't pull my grade so far down that I'll have to repeat Algebra. o_o Eep. That would suck.

All that the eighth grade girls have been talking about lately are the graduation outfits. Hahah. It's kinda amusing how it matters so much to everyone. I wish I'd had more time to shop for something nicer than what I have, though. Ehh. Oh, well. And Mother was all, "You have to get something girly," and I'm like, "Why???" But yeah. Oh, well. It may be way too feminine for my tastes, but at least it's something.

Plugs - Maggie, Kristine, Mary, Cin, Mercutio, and Tiffany.

watched summer sunsets @ PM 10:56
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"All You Wanted" - Michelle Branch

June 12 2004

The last few days have been nice. Everything's coming to an end. =\ The Algebra finals weren't that bad after all! The first part was super easy, and I think I did okay on the second part. Guessed on a lot of problems, though. Hope I received a decent score. But really, I'm just glad that it's over.

On Thursday we watched the All-Star softball game (which Justin played in ;]), which was actually quite enjoyable. Of course, I wasn't really watching the game... Too busy talking. =P And the concert was that night. I went early, so I walked to Crossroads with Tiffany, Kristine, and Amanda M. and bought smoothies. Thanks for paying for me, Tiffany. Then hung around for a while w/ Mag, Ridts, and Amanda N. while we waited for our turn to play. That was fun. And the concert itself turned out to be okay. =]

And yesterday night was the Class of '04 graduation dance. The decorations were so much nicer than usual. =D Had fun. Not as much as the last dance [cough] but it was still really nice. Michael looked adorable. =] My friends were trying to push me into him, and I actually ran into him once and yelled, "Sorry, sorry!" Hahah. Don't think he heard it over the music. The DJ sucked, though. He only played two slow songs. o_0 Oh, well. Everyone else looked so cute dancing. Kinda wish I had been there with them, but well, I did fall for Michael, one of the worst people to go crazy over. >< I'd better find someone good in high school. =(

Plugs - Tiffany, Maggie, Kristine, Cin, and Ridts.

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"Ocean Avenue" - Yellowcard

June 18 2004

This is going to be a long entry. Have a lot to say. Hmm, I'll just go over the entire week. On Monday, we didn't really do anything. But I did great on my Algebra final: 92%! I'm so proud. On Tuesday, we got our yearbooks. A lot of people signed mine, including Michael and Justin, yay. On Wednesday we went to Knott's Berry Farm! It's the first amusement park that I've been to in a while. Some people found it boring, but I had my fun. And after Knott's, Diana, Maggie, Erin, and I went to Culver Plaza for Mother's cafe opening. Hung around for a bit, which was nice. =] I enjoyed the day immensely, but I was pretty tired after I got home.

And today... Oh, god, I don't even know what to say. I'm so fucking happy and sad at the same time. Today was graduation, and the last day of school. Everyone looked positively beautiful at the ceremony. The procession music was played by the Honor String Ensemble (in which Michael and Justin were in) and seeing my two crushes on the stage, for the last time ever... That just broke me down. I was in tears by the time we sat down.

And after the ceremony... I just could not stop crying. I honestly did not think that I would cry, but I did. I mean, the thought of missing all my friends was enough...but missing Michael? I was in hysterics. I hugged so many people so many times, crying througout it all. I have never cried for something for so continuously. For Michael, for Justin, for the friends that I'll never see again, for the friends that I'm going to miss over the summer, and for the school, too. I...I do love the school. It holds so many memories dear to me.

Every time I spotted Michael, I would just break down. ='( I kept saying incohrently, "Oh god, I have to see Michael before we leave, I have to, please..." and everyone was so sweet about it. My friends (the best people in the whole fucking world) went with me up to him and told him to take a picture with me. And you know what? He actually consented.

Yeah. I took a picture with Michael. I'm going to treasure it forever. And you know what's even better? He hugged me. Twice. And they weren't short hugs, either. =*] Yeah, what feels like the love of my life gave me two hugs. God, I love him so much. I kept saying, "Thank you so much, thank you, thank you, thank you..." over and over again to him. I guess everyone's right. He's not as cruel as I make him out to be. And when we finally let go I was still crying, but I was so happy at the same time. Michael's the only person who can make me feel like that. He's the only one who's been able to make me feel so much fucking emotion.

After more hugs and tears, Diana, Maggie, Erin, Amanda, Mary, and I walked to Diana's house. Hung around for a bit, just having fun, and Patricia and Ridts came later, too. =] Around 530 the remainder of us (some people were picked up), Patricia, Ridts, Diana, and I walked to Josh's house for his party for all the Plaza Vista '04 graduates. The party was nice. =] Left at 1010 and walked to Ridts's house. Hung there 'til 1130; had fun. Got home 'bout 1150.

Successful day? Yes. I can't decide whether this or the dance was better. 'Cause today also had such sadness in it... Depressing day? Yes. Am I happy? ...I'm half overjoyed about the hugs, and half hysterical because I'll probably never see Michael ever again. Maybe... Maybe one day I'll get up the nerve to talk to him on AIM. I hope so. I really do. He means more to me than I can express with words, and I...

I'm really going to miss him.

Plugs - Tiffany, Kristine, Diana, Ridts, Maggie, and Stepherz.

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"Friends Forever" - Vitamin C

June 25 2004

Hmm, hmm. My first week of summer was rather nice! It's not over yet, but still. =] I've been waking up at decent times (okay, so 10 AM to 12 PM, but during spring break it was 3 to 6 PM! ><), and even sleeping at decent times. Heh. Have been going to Mother's cafe frequently, out of pure boredom. Plus, it's rather nice there. And I even worked for six hours there yesterday. Yep, am being paid for it. Yay! I'm desperately running out of money, so yeah. =P It's all good.

Am being good in keeping in touch with my friends... I've seen Diana a million times this weeek, hah. She came over today, too, which was nice. Went to the pool with her. =] And I even saw Maggie on Wednesday, which was great, although I did only get to spend a little time with her since she was with her boyfriend. And Erin's in Hawaii, Ridts is in Taiwan, and Tiffany is in Europe. They're all coming back around the same time, though, heheh. Yay. And the rest of us have just been bored senseless. Well, I'm okay, really. I haven't been bored for a while.

I've been trying to get in shape by walking a lot. Gets me a bit tired, but relaxed as well, which is nice. And you get this nice feeling of exhilaration. =] Oh, and more good news. I think I'm over Justin. Which is a good thing. =] I guess he was just a distraction technique I made for myself to try to stop liking Michael. =\ Ah, Michael. I'm still stuck on him. I even had my official almost-hour-long cry about him on Sunday. Lots of thanks to Mag and Ridtsy for comforting me during it. They both told me the same thing: just get over him. Yeah. Part of me wants to do just that, but the other half doesn't want to let go...

Plugs - Tiffany, Maggie, Cinnamon, Diana, and Kristine.

watched summer sunsets @ PM 10:22
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"Canon in D" - Pachelbel
(those of you who know me know how much this song means to me ;_;)

July 1 2004

Nothing much has been happening lately, but hey, I'm not even bored of the summer yet! Hahah. It's been nice. Have been working at Mother's cafe twice a week (trying improving my people skills and earn some money at the same time...), which is good, 'cause I'm finally not being cooped up at home all day. It's nice to get out once in a while. =]

I think Mother's finally loosening her grip on me. (Personally I think it's 'cause she totally saw me and Michael hugging. o_0) She let me stay out until midnight on the day of graduation, she's letting me have friends over and letting me go over to their houses, etc. I'm glad. It's not like anything between us has really changed, though (we had two arguments on Monday ><). More regarding family. Father comes home from 11 PM to midnight when he's actually home (which is quite rare these days; he's always on business trips), and Mother comes home around 11 (or later) nowadays. I'm seeing Mother more now, though, since I started working. Not sure if that's a good or bad thing.

Oh, yeah! It's July now. Which means my birthday! =] Ack, I can't believe I'm already almost 14. It seems like only a month ago that I had my 13th birthday party. o_0 Diana and Mary's birthdays are coming up as well. =D Oh, and about the layout. I've been trying to make one, but I never come up with anything I like. -_- Oh, well. We'll see. And thanks for the comforting comments & advice! =] As for Michael... Agh. I don't know. I know I still like him, but I'm trying not to dwell on him as much. Keeping myself busy distracts me, which I guess is good, so I hope it'll all turn out okay.

Happy International Day of Slash!

Plugs - Ridts, Cin, Amanda, Kristine, and Steph.

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"This is the Night" - Clay Aiken

July 6 2004

Hope all you Americans had a nice 4th of July. =] Mine was okay. Diana and her mom invited me to Huntington Beach with them. Maggie and her mom invited me to go to Irvine High's 4th of July event thing. Mother said no to both of them. >< Something about me having to go eat w/ her at the cafe that night. Pfft. And in the end, I didn't even go eat w/ her or whatever! Blegh. So I just sat outside listening to music and writing, and watching the fireworks all by myself. Ehh. 'Twas all right.

Went to work at 11 today... Wasn't exactly busy, besides the midday rush. But I got my first paycheck, LOL. =P Am rather proud of myself. $77 for 2 days! =D Now I'll just have to restrain myself from spending it too quickly, which I always do. I also always pay for my friends when we go out, which obviously uses up all my money, hahahh. I do want to go shopping sometime soon, though. New clothes for high school would be nice. =]

Wow, I can't believe there's only six more days until I turn 14. It's crazy how fast time passes these days. I'm not sure I even want to turn 14. Next thing you know, I'll be in high school, and then college, and then out in the world, blah. >< Besides, 13 is my favorite number. =P Hmm, hmm, not much to say today. Except, thanks so much for all the comments! =]

Plugs - Kristine, Sunny, Ridts, Maggie, Yelei, Cin, and Tiffany.

watched summer sunsets @ AM 12:43
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"You Won't Be Mine" - Matchbox Twenty

July 8 2004

Ah. Sitting at a little table in a corner of Mother's bakery/cafe. 'Tis nice and rather relaxing. Am sipping a smoothie I made myself (a mango, passion fruit, and strawberry blend =P) and listening to some bouncy music. =] It's great after six hours of work. Plus, I only got three hours of sleep last night. Stayed up later than I should've (5 AM) reading a particularly captivating piece of fanfiction, ehehe. I'm pretty used to it, though.

Am pleased with myself. Things have been going quite well during this summer; I had been expecting it to be extremely dull and consist of sleeping and using the computer. But it's not like that at all, to my great relief. I'm actually practicing piano daily (which is a big accomplishment, believe me =P), though I'm a bit irritated that nobody has said anything about it. >< I've been able to write/work some more on my stories (I've had Writer's Block for the last year >=[). I've been feeling loads better about Michael--I know I still like him more than a lot, but I think I've finally come to terms with the fact that I will never see him again. I'll miss him more than anything, and I know it'll be fucking painful... But I will get through it. =\ Hopefully. (Mother confronted me flat out about him the other day. I think she thinks that we're dating or something. o_0)

And I've been working, for heaven's sake. Earning money for myself. Good money, LOL. (Health Department inspector came today, BTW. She was cute. =*P) So yep. I feel sucessful and proud of myself. That'll probably all fade away as high school approaches. Still very nervous about that, but for the next few weeks I hope to just enjoy myself.

That's what summer's for, right? =]

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"Into You" - Fabolous

1 July 2004

Happy International Day of Slash!

Plugs - Ridts, Cin, Amanda, Kristine, and Steph.

visited le ville de bleu @ AM 12:55
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"This is the Night" - Clay Aiken

6 July 2004

Plugs - Kristine, Sunny, Ridts, Maggie, Yelei, Cin, and Tiffany.

visited le ville de bleu @ AM 12:43
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"You Won't Be Mine" - Matchbox Twenty

8 July 2004

That's what summer's for, right? =]

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"Into You" - Fabolous

13 July 2004

Oops, I never posted the last entry, LOL. =P But whee, new layout! And it's Julyyyyy 13th! ...For those of you who are clueless as to why today matters, it's my 14th birthday. =D Whee. I'll be exactly 14 later in the afternoon, but blegh, who cares when exactly? Hahahh. So yep. Will be going out to dinner w/ family this evening... Should be decent. Am looking forward to the good food. =P

About the layout... Hope it turned out okay. I haven't had a blue layout in a while, so I thought it'd be nice. I went ahead and edited some other stuff as well... Like the title. Nobody can pronounce Akuryou, anyway. -__- FYI, xDelight is the merging of the words ecstasy and delight. (BTW, any links/buttons reading Akuryou are still fine/valid. I don't mind at all.)

Days have been passing by pretty quickly. Between work at the cafe and reading/designing on the computer, there's not much time for anything else. I don't mind, though. The money's good, I'm enjoying myself, so yeah. Ooh, went to see King Arthur with Kristine on Saturday. 'Twas quite nice. Hung out at the Spectrum a bit afterwards. It was nice to really get out. =]

I think I'll have a small party on Saturday celebrating my birthday, like I usually do. Maybe some people can sleep over as well. That should be fun. There's some people that I wish I could invite but probably won't be allowed to. It's fine, though. I'm looking forward to spending some quality time with my closest closest friends. =]

Thanks so much for the comments, and the 6000+ hits! =D Plugs - Yelei, Kristine, Tiffany, Clement, Cin, Mary, Amanda, and Sunny,

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"If You're Gone" - Matchbox Twenty

19 July 2004

Had an all right birthday. Ate at Macaroni Grill, which was lovely. I do love pasta. The best part? There were a lot of people who wished me a happy birthday (thanks, everyone!), and... Michael was one of them. =D That just totally made my day. One of the greatest gifts ever. =] It's the first time he's talked to me since he 'officially' found out that I like him. So yeah. (Thank you so much, Tiffany!)

I had my party/get-together yesterday; had a great time. =] We lounged around my house, being loud, screaming and laughing a lot (which qualifies as being loud), throwing things at each other (e.g. balloons), and just being all around crazy. Ahahha. Fun, yep. Decided to go to the Spectrum. Watched Anchorman, some of us bought jewelry, and I treated everyone to Starbucks. And I paid for the movie tickets, too, hehehh. I have no idea how much I spent.

Also saw Patricia and Saide there. Left at 7 and went back to my house. Fooled around and ran around the house (along with trashing my room -__-) some more, then Tiffany left. Pizza, video games, then Aimi left. Mother came home around midnight; we had the cake. Yum. Then I finished opening my presents (which were all quite nice! =]) Hung around in my room, then video games again. Went to bed at 5 AM, but Mag, Di, and I stayed up talking. Erin slept.

Mag and Erin left in the morning; Di stayed until 3 PM (she didn't want to go to her own birthday family celebration; her birthday is the 18th). So yeah. Enjoyed myself. Yay. =]

Plugs - Cin, Kristine, Tiffany, and Ridts.

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"Smack My Bitch Up" - Prodigy

23 July 2004

Hmm, hmm. Not much to say, really. It's why I haven't been posting much lately. My life at the moment consists mostly of sleep, eating, reading slash, keeping in touch with my social side by talking to people online, working at the cafe...and more sleeping. -_- Yep. I'm still not bored of it, though. Which is quite nice. I remember last year (as you can see from my 2003 archives) I was bored to hell. Things have changed, I suppose. [shrug]

Plaza Vista, my now former school, starts up this coming Wednesday. =\ (It's year-round, which I loved.) And for the first time since it's opened, I won't be attending. Mehh. I'm definitely going back to visit (it's weird that all the former 8th graders always go back and help/visit). Jessica still goes there, so I'm gonna see it a lot anyway. I do want to go on the first day, if not just to see Jerry and the kids. And Ms. Wei. =]

Saw Mag yesterday while I was working. 'Twas nice. =] Hmm, what else? Have been thinking about high school and am getting more freaked out by the minute. Stupid typical freshman nervousness. I hope the first day at IHS won't be too nervewracking. ><

Plugs - Steph, Cin, and Tiffany.

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"She Will Be Loved" - Maroon 5

28 July 2004

Had a nice day. Dropped Jess off at Plaza Vista (stayed around a bit) 'round 8 AM, then went home w/ Mother. At 920, Mother dropped me off at PV again. Met up w/ Diana and Maggie. Ran around visiting teachers for a bit, which was nice 'cause they are so much nicer when you've graduated. -__- Helped some teachers (we got split up) and I met up with Mary, Mytchel, and Yosuke. They came w/ me to go sign up to help on Friday. =] Then we split up again, and some of us went to Crossroads.

Bought Diana her birthday present, some candy for all of us, and a drink. Then Mag had to go back, so we dropped her off at her house (she had to leave at 12). I crashed at Di's house, and we watched Hellboy DVD (the birthday present). I walked back to the school at 105, and met up with my sister there. Mother picked us up and we went to the Cafe for a bit. Then piano lessons, then shopping and dinner, and then we came back. Satisfied, yep.

I have work tomorrow, which should be rather busy. The Cafe now has a computer w/ Internet in the back, so that keeps me occupied when my shift is over and Mother won't drop me home. =D And after helping at PV on Friday, Di and I are going to go catch a movie. Should be fun. =]

Plugs - Ridts, Cin, Mary, Tiffany, and Maggie.

visited le ville de bleu @ PM 11:43
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"Last Beautiful Girl" - Matchbox Twenty

5 August 2004

Oops, haven't posted for a bit. Things have been nice, I suppose. Last Friday we (Maggie, Amanda, Tiffany, Mary, and I) went to the PV to help, but we got kicked off campus 'cause we were too late. Spontaneously decided to walk to Diana's house. Crashed there for a bit, then went to Crossroads. Later Erin, Di, and I walked to the Westpark theater to watch Catwoman. Then to Blockbuster and rented Underworld, which was hot, lol. I actually dozed off during it, though. Too tired, hahahh. After Erin left, Diana and I hung out at the cafe 'til 11.

My uncle arrived on Sunday; he's here from Taiwan to study English at UCI or something. He bought me a new cell phone (as a "graduation present" 0_o), which I love. Worked on Monday, and hung w/ Diana afterwards. Everyone else went to PV, and apparently I missed Michael, who they met on the way to Crossroads. Ehh.

Have been volunteering at PV in the last two days. On Tuesday we left at 11 (actually, on most days we leave at 11) and walked to Culver Plaza. Bought McDonald's and crashed at the cafe and the coffeehouse nearby. Walked Mag home, then walked Amanda back to the school. Then walked back to the coffeehouse (where Diana and Kelly still were) and right after that the three of us went to Di's house. Stayed for a bit, then went back to the school for Mother to pick me up. -___- My poor, abused feet.

Plugs - Tiffany, Maggie, Steph, and Mary.

visited le ville de bleu @ PM 11:08
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"Southside" - Lloyd & Ashanti

17 August 2004

It's been a while, hasn't it? Heh, like five of us freshmen got kicked out of PV. Then we all got kicked out. Well, the vice principal told us that we couldn't help anymore. Except that now everyone's saying that if you sign up with a specific teacher, you can still volunteer. I'm not sure. I'll be going tomorrow, though. Even though I'm kinda tired, I guess I can't stay home sleeping all day. -_- Saw a lot of Michael's friends at the cafe on Thursday when I was working. Was disappointed that he wasn't there, but unsurprised. Ehh. I miss him. But at least we parted on decent terms, I guess... =\

Went bowling w/ Mag and Jessica on Friday. 'Twas fun. Then to Culver Plaza, then Crossroads, then Mag's house. Then I walked back to the cafe and hung out w/ Michael (er, a 20-year-old Michael, heh) and his little brother Daniel. He's one of our best cashiers, but he left Sunday night to enter the military in Taiwan. Something about legal documents and his father being sued. He won't be back for two years. >< I'll miss him. I was attracted to him for a little bit, then we were semi-friends. I hope we'll keep in touch.

Bought the Love Actually DVD and watched it on Sunday night. Was crying my eyes out (plus oogling Keira =P). I'm such a romantic. -__- I liked it, though. Of course, I'm kind of biased, I guess. Keira looked great. ;]

Thanks for the comments! I'll try to update & comment more. Plugs - Kristine, Tiffany, Ridts, Maggie, Mary, Mike, and Amanda.

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"Rest Stop" - Matchbox Twenty

24 August 2004

Hmm. Just woke up from a weird, random nap. Went to PV, then Crossroads today. Ate lunch w/ Amanda and Kelly at Tropical Smoothie, then went shopping. Had fun. Barely had any money, though. -_- Went to the Spectrum with Jessica on Saturday. Had fun spending spending spending. =P 'Twas nice, anyway. Got me pretty damn tired, though.

Went to PV last Wednesday. Then picked up Di and walked to Crossroads. Had a nice lunch, then went to Fashionland and Le Vogue to try on a bunch of clothes. Heheh. Ended up buying two shirts. 'Twas nice. And on Friday after PV, we bought sandwiches and ate at Mag's house. Stayed there until around three.

High school starts in, what, fifteen days? Eep. >< And registration is next Wednesday. 0_0 I still have to finish filling out all my forms. And the summer reading! The Odyssey, Mythology by Edith Hamilton, a few books from the Bible... Blegh. Everyone's saying that if you don't read them all, you'll get kicked out of American Lit. I hope that's not the case. =\ I'd better read faster than usual. And considering I read the Order of the Phoenix in a single day, I read pretty damn fast. Not to sound conceited. -_-

Thanks for the comments! Plugs - Mary, Stepherz, Maggie, Tiffany, and Andrew.

visited le ville de bleu @ AM 11:09
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"California Dreamin'" - DJ Sammy